Yoda, I forgot to mention that he would have to pay me half of what he has if he does divorce me. I'm almost certain that he's dropping money or has dropped money with his family and/or friends in another country. I googled all the sneaky ways that a spouse tends to hide assets and money.

I'll hire a forensic detective or something like that to find out where the hidden assets or money is, but first of all, I'd need money for that. I'd probably need money if I decide to leave him as he said that he wouldn't pay for a lawyer. There is no way that my parents would help me out as my dad is sexist pig who loves him and I never really got along with him past the age of 10.

Unfortunately, he's the one who controls all the finances- No one that I know would help me out with a loan or with much else. I can only lean on my friends for emotional support and advice, but that's it. I'll seek counseling and job training at a local domestic violence shelter soon.