im so scared. im so scared of getting hurt. emotionally and physically. im scared that the minute i get close to someone they are just gonna turn around and hurt me. (ive had that experience a lot) im so scared that someone is going to physically harm me. ive had so many nightmares that my cousin (30-40 year old) got angry at me or something and just physically abused me. hes emotionally hurt me a lot. i guess i figure that he has emotionally and mentally hurt me, the only thing left is physically. well anyways, i find that im always scared. if im home alone im scared, even with friends or parents or anybody really. i guess ive just had so many bad dreams that turn into thoughts that turn into beliefs. i told my best friend and she asked me if anyone has ever actually tried to physically hurt me in the past. i feel like somebody has but i cant remember who and i cant remember what they did. i dont know maybe its just a reflection from all the nightmares. i mean even when i have nightmares the people who are hurting me arent him all the time, sometimes its just random 30-40 year old males that i have never seen before in my life. i just find im so scared and i dont know what to do...