Just by reading what I am reading here..I feel like you are a bit out of control.

Stress can be controlled somewhat. From what I figure you were a heavy drinker for so long that your coping mechanisms are out of whack. Alch dulls your senses. Most likely you are just becoming more aware of how you feel on a normal daily basis.

I agree anti-psychotics don't make sense for you.

I would not consider you bipolar. I would consider you recovering.

I think your best bet is to try to become more self-aware. Start monitoring how your body reacts to certain things...what makes you tick. Get a better understanding of where you think your mind is going before you get there.

Your P-doc is there to help you, but they can't really help you much if you are unaware of yourself and cannot explain in detail how you feel under certain situations.

Even if you find you are getting normal, this self-actualization will go a long ways to increasing your coping skills.

Good Luck to you.