Thanks for your responses...so last night (or earlier) tonight in a too much to drink state...I emailed my T and told her about transference issues and feeling quite attracted to her...ugh. I see her in about 10 hours. I would really like to run and hide and just never go back. Never contact her again. I'm absolutely terrified. Not just bc of that but also bc of my self destructiveness in general lately...but then that's worthy of a whole separate post elsewhere. After hitting the "send" button I immediately regretted it and sent her a follow up with "please don't read previous email" as the subject--but yeah doubt that will happen...