I can't even go to therapy and feel calm. I hate waiting and watching people walk pass me. The nervousness and paranoia kicks me. I think everyone is a threat. I feel like I can't trust anyone. I feel like everyone is laughing at me. They think I'm a joke and I feel like I don't even deserve to be in therapy. I have no idea what is wrong with me. I accidentally saw my notes today and it said I had ptsd. I don't even remember sharing about any traumatic incidents, I don't know why they wrote that. I have no idea which thoughts are real and which aren't. Am I just being paranoid or is this all true? Just so tired of having to live like this. I wish someone who has been through this can tell me for sure that I'm just being paranoid. I wish someone could give me all the answers to what is going on. Am I really going crazy??