Hi Purplesecrets

Welcome to PC, you are right, there is a large amount of support here. People here ARE accepted for just being themselves, nobody is abandoned nor neglected here, we all understnad where you are coming from and what you feel isnt new to most of us.

i felt for your words, reading your post i felt i connected with you. i understnad what is going around in your head, i really do.

its always a scary experience to begin with, something like this site. but you will in time learn to lose those walls and build proper friendships with people here, i know because i have.

firstly, can i just say that you should never live life the way you think you ought to, his will cause a lot of your misery. we can never be somebody we arent, its impossible. we have to be true to ourselves, to be true to our hearts. we will never be happy living someone elses life, and besides, we only have one shot at life, so why live it the way others want you to.

people will never see the real you if you hide behind masks that you think should be there. you say you long for someone to see beyond the mask, but they wont, they cant unless you drop it. in time, you will learn how to slwoly lower the mask and reveal the real you. please dont continue living someone elses life. i for one would like to get to know the real you.

depression is such a hard thing to dealw ith, it really is. most of the time it cannot be done alone. we need help to overcome it. well done for facing it head on, and for coming here to PC, trust me when i say you are on the road to recovery. we are all here to help and we will never outcast you. we are here with open arms ready to accept the real you.

you dont have to scream here to make anyone listen. nor will you struggle to let us understand.

this is the start of your recovery process now. you will see a brighter day soon, i promise.

have you been to your doctor about getting anti-depressants? do you attend therapy? if the answer to both of these questions in "no", then i'd advise you try both. just go to your doctor and explain how you feel, they too can help and will know what to do to help.

Im glad to see you here, purplesecrets. i sure hope you stay for a long time.

im here if you should ever need me ok. just pm me anytime.

simon