left work early today by 30 minutes because i don't know whether i could stand another 30 minutes without breaking down completely.. stared blankly on the way home trying to contain it all inside. luckily the people at work are understanding and supportive so.. i'm hoping to not abuse it. i don't know whether i can make it through another work day. i hope so...

feeling quite sui lately and this is not a good sign. si has been more frequent... think next pdoc appt i shall try my best to work up the courage to change the meds. :/