Often I feel this. This aching pain in the heart that comes for no reason at all. A want to cry but inability to.

When I think about it, I'm okay with life now.. even though I didn't achieve some of the things I wanted. So I find that the sadness came without reason. And then led to frustration, led to cutting, led to feeling worthless, and now sui thoughts.

The other day I told T this and T went "then why are you here then? When there is no stressors or triggers?" I was quite taken aback.. quite offended... I felt like I wasn't understood. I don't know.. I'm wondering why did T say that.. when she knows me alot more.. we did a DASS 21 previously and my depressive symptoms was still severe even though everything else in my life was okay. I thought she knew...

Anyway anyone else has this sadness without reason? *sigh*

(I guess I'm really annoyed and affected by T...)