I keep trying to talk to my husband about my mental health. We have been married for 4-1/2 years, and have a 14 yr old together. We have been through a lot. I have to trick him to ask about my behavior so that I may write it down to give to my T and P-Doc. Parts of me gets depressed about it, yet the other parts of me get angry, not that I know when or how come. The P-Doc has a long list of DX. AXIS I- Bi-polar, then Disassociative Disorder, Panic attack, and PTSD. I know what some of the trauma was from because a former med brought it back bad enough to be admitted for a week. I can't even talk about the trauma much less my actions with him. I just wanted to know what I do when I don't remember. I always thought I was passing out, but come to find out I am not. Why don't I know what causes my anger or depression? Why won't he or the kids tell me. They just think I am, in their words "bat-****-crazy". Example: Last night we went shopping, I reminded him he needed deodorant. That made an argument. He tells me to quit telling him. Or that I was thirsty. Apparently I told him that many many times. I didn't recall it. It's like I go in and out and don't know it and he wont let me talk about it because it is too much for him to take. I have only seen my T 3 times, today will be the 4th. We don't do alot but B.S. I was so proud of my mother acknowledging the family genetics, but I am still so lonely with this. It is hard to not fall back into the deep hole. I'm sorry, I just needed to get this out to someone. Thanks for listening whoever you may be.