Hello

If you have dissociative disorder you may have learnt to separate yourself as defence mechanism for so long that now, you don't know where your anger and depression comes from (altho reading your blog, maybe the lack of support from your husband may be one of the reasons). As u only on 4th app with T, you may, in time, gain more of an insight and hopefully she/he will help! Good luck with it all and stay strong! U r doing nothing wrong xx