well the good news is that im handling it better, ive come to terms that i may not see her for a long time or ever.... but im more hopeful and eager to just be a better man because regardless of who the girl is- i cant be this weak guy anymore

maybe if i do change shell notice and come around again in the future and if she doesn't some other girl will!

i do believe time can settle the dust from this, im just not gonna waste my time waiting for her