I don't mind at all avlady

My CPN visit didn't go quite like I was expecting but in saying that she was ever so worried.

I was honest as I could be I had a chat with her on my own first and then she said she would like a chat with hubby..She asked how I was doing I told her how I was feeling and that the suicidal feelings are constant she then said she will ask my Pdoc this afternoon and see if he will prescribe me diazepam but I did tell her that these made me feel worse the last time I took them she then went onto to say I do look unwell and she even noticed that I have lost weight, She mentioned me going into hospital if I don't improve by next week but then went onto to say they aren't the best places to be so this will be the last resort.

She then called me back this afternoon and said she spoken to my Pdoc and they decided not to prescribe me diazepam but to increase my citalopram to 40mg from 20 mg and also she said this morning that 2 mental health nurses will be visiting me on Saturday and Sunday, She also said that she was talking to my T yesterday and she was really worried about me my CPN said that my T wants to now take things really slowly in therapy as they seem to think this could be taking a big part in how I am feeling but I don't think it is.

Hubby also spoke to my CPN and she basically told him that if I don't improve in a week then hospital will be another option but come to think of it when she called back she said 2 weeks maybe give the new dose time to work, Hubby told her that he is worried how far I will go and tbh I am worried myself, I have had these thoughts before but not to this extreme.