since my last episode i feel like ive lost part of 'me'. i cant concentrate on anything and i dont want to be a part of the world. also dont know what is normal and what isnt. is so weird ive gone through life thinking these things were normal an now im being told they aren't. i dont know what is me and what is the 'illness'. still feel watched everytime i go outside and still get them putting thoughts in my head even tho im on meds. dont know how much to tell them though i dont want to end up back in hospital. just dont know what the hell is going on in my head. is this normal?