It's hard for me, too.

I believe I should have been a bisexual male, because I have always favored gay men and straight women. I am also angry that my straight best friend is going through a bisexual phase and will not choose me because I am "too close" to her and doesn't want to ruin the friendship. AKA Friendzoned.

Since high school I've had fantasies where I am the man with another man. Although I do not believe I am transgendered and do not want surgery because I cannot change the past, there are some things I can do.

I can use a strap-on, which has been my newest fantasy, as there are men who would enjoy being pegged by a woman. I can crossdress, which I have tried during high school and it did not work so well as I was unsure of who I was. I can be happy that I have boobs, because EVERYONE loves boobies no matter what gender or sexuality you are: people love boobs.

I think you might be depending on your parents too much, or they may have a point. I am not sure. Some people were truly a different sex in the wrong body. But some people just hate the gender they have because they have to live up to all these expectations that they can't seem to fulfill. When you are an adult you can choose to change your gender, but you can also learn that it won't change the past. You grew up a certain way in the body you have. You can't go back and date the people you wanted to date before. That was in the past. I can't tell you "this is how it's supposed to be and how you're supposed to feel". That's up to you to decide. Do you really want to accept that you weren't meant to be the opposite sex, or do you truly believe that you are the opposite sex in the wrong body?