I still have mixed feelings about this. The MD sent me to her for therapy. She jumps the gun, making a diagnosis and suggesting he write scripts for these medications. That is what my md is concerned about. He doesn't have the training and knowledge to treat what he thought was just ocd. She did tell me that I could read the letter. I don't like how she comes off as being pushy. If I try telling her I'm not comfortable talking about distancing myself from my family, she says, well in time after you start taking these medicines, you'll feel more at ease with it. Give me a break. I'm not that crazy. I'm sane enough to know that I do not and will not distance myself from my family. It's like she's a control freak. She wants me to see things her way. She even admitted that in her younger years, she was treated for Bipolar. I'm thinking she still has it. lol.

Echos, to answer your question, I just want my life back. I want to be able to concentrate on one thing for longer than 30 seconds. I want to live without constantly being afraid something bad is going to happen. I want to be able to kiss my husband good-bye before work and not be afraid that'll be the last kiss. It's like my whole foundation has been rocked and I really am just sick and tired of it. I've always had trust issues. It's really hard for me to trust this lady whom I've only met 2 times. I do, however, feel like I can trust my MD who has known me for 20 years. I guess I do want some kind of medication to help me cope and get through this but I don't want my personality to change. I don't want to feel like a zombie.

Brookester, yes I do live in KY. I'm not very aware of the laws but will look into them today. I'm not even going to bother calling either one of them today because it just stresses me out soo much. She does make sense about some things but she just made me feel like I've totally lost my mind. After my post last night, I got soo frustrated and so confused, that I actually started having chest pains. I felt like I was going to pass out. In no way am I suicidal so don't take this that way.. but I just can't take this anymore. Something has to give. Brookester is right, she is a total source of anxiety. Sometimes it takes just hearing (well, reading) someone else say it. I'm more stressed after this last appointment than I have been in a very long time. She's not helping. I guess it's time to work on my husband and try to get him to understand how I feel about this. Thanks for all your input so far. Please feel free to add anything you think could help.