I am I think in some crossroad here. For the the 1st time this afternoon I realize why I am so tired in the afternoons. I had what I thought was a normal lunch. Maybe it is not normal for me? It was to heavy and I felt it as it digested. So that is the start of me putting myself down saying I had no will of any sort. I am good at that! But that one second connection I realized I needed to make changes. Small changes one I can live with. I talked to a friend for the 1st time about some issues I have and he listened. How nice. So today was pretty good!