yeah last week i took a bunch of valium. someone said they had some & being the addict i am 2,3,4 is better than one. also i just went up to the store & bought a box of benadryl lol! right now i just wanna sleep the day away. all i crave i sweets so i also got some cookie dough & fudge rounds. i want so much to get my life back. i just feel numb like i dont care about anything one way or the other. i know i need to be the one to take the step to my lifestyle changes but its so hard. i just wanna stay locked up in the house & sleep. i feel like ive crashed from mania to low depression. i know if all i keep putting in my body is sugar im gonna stay screwed up mentally & physically & im gonna keep craving sugar all the time. i dont mean to ramble, i could go on forever.