all this being alone is making me go crazy or something.

for some reason idk i got into my car and drove fast with the door open. then almost killed myself. and then coming home almost got into an accident.

its really not like im not trying to meet people or get out of my house.

but sooner or later i told u - im gonna end up in hospital or dead or in jail. and i dont plan it. i dont try to do things that make me end up there. but its like everything builds up and ....
..
..
...its just killing me inside. it really is and no one around me knows what to do.
and like i said i didnt want to but i DID open up to my parents. even my mom and shes completely last resort person.

this is really gonna do me in. im serious.
like im dead serious.