Anytime, I have a few good days in a row and I cut back on my meds, I start having withdraws. Something very good for withdrawals is a tea called Star Anise. Use about 5 or 6 stars in about 12oz of water put the burner on med an slow boil it. When it starts boiling, time it for 10 min. Its not gonna look dark at all. It will look like weak tea. You may like it with sugar.Strain the tea in the cup. Dont throw the used stars away you can use them a few times over. Let me know if this helps you. Take care. Trust me I know exactly how you feel. I've been on this ride since I was 18 years old. Please dont feel bad about having to use a certain level of medication to control your pain. Also, something that may help your mind to relax a little is, there are two different types of addictions. Mental and physical. Our physical bodies get used to the narcotics, but we are not mentally addicted as some are who do drugs for recreation. Take care!