To her it was that "that was just me" and then is now saying that it just seems unfair that I should have bipolar ontop of everything else I've gone through. We did have good times but it was just a lot of bad times too. Just way too much fighting and it felt like sooner or later we would've hit a road block in the relationship. But I had become so dependant on her that I feel like leaving her is hurting her. As I was told in the past she would kill herself if I ever left because I was the only thing keeping her alive and had also been told that once when I broke up with her (from her mother) that it was my fault that she cut and that it was me who almost killed her so I better stay with her.
The new girl she isn't really enthusiastic about me getting better she just wants to know if I'll be hospitalized so she knows I'll be out of contact for a couple days. That I'm doing alright and that I need stability in my life. I'm just more worried about if she'll be able to handle someone who is bipolar. It's not the easiest thing in the world to deal with especially if you have no experience with it.