well, my appointment went better than expected...I went in and she said, "so let's talk about your email" - I said, "I don't want to"
She said that we will be talking about it. I couldn't look at her. Couldn't make eye contact with her.

She actually said that she wasn't surprised about the same-sex attraction stuff, but was surprised about being attracted to her. She asked why I thought I was attracted to her...I said probably because she listens and I feel safe with her. Anyway, she asked what I was so afraid of...I said that I don't know...she said that I do. My biggest fear? Being rejected and judged. She said she isn't running. She said she didn't email me and tell me not to come. I said that she should have.

Anyway it went well...and I see her next week.