Nearly all of my friends have either killed themselves, been killed, or refuse to talk to me. I'm drifting further and further from everyone and no matter what I do I can't get back. When I told a guy that everyone I care about is dead, he said "Just get new friends." I can't get new friends. You can't replace friends. I have this friendship necklace, while the other half has been dead for years. People tell me to get rid of it. I can't just get rid of it. Everyone is changing, they're meaner, they're scary, they're different. Everyone who doesn't hate me hates themselves. I'm scared for everyone in our little "group" in school, because we've all forgotten what it means to just smile. We don't know what life means anymore because everything is gone. I can't cope with this and I don't want to cope with it. Sometimes I wish I'd killed myself back when I had the guts to do it. Now I just don't know anymore...