I know the feelings you are talking about all too well.. I have days when I try to pretend it didnt happen. I have days when I am angry that it happened. I even have days when I think back and tell myself well you dummy you let him to do it.. You even liked it!!!! I feel like a horrible person because at the time I did like it!! my bpdy was responding to what was going on and it liked it.... But being where I am now, an adult, I feel dirty and nasty when I think back on it! At times I feel like a litte "*****".

I am sorry that you too know these feelings. I am here for you if you ever need some one to listen to you!!