Sounds like you are doing a lot of good things for yourself even in crisis. Glad you are trying to take care of yourself. Sorry that you have fallen through the cracks with getting a case worker. Have you tried journalling? It might help get some of those feelings out. Glad you have a good therapist. Glad you are posting on PC, too, there is a lot of support to be had here. Keep posting and get to know the people on the board and maybe you want feel quite so alone.
gayle.