Thanks I wish he was in the service and I could contact someone - he got a job over there teaching English - he was going to email me the name and address of the school but hasn't done it . I have sent emails daily for a week asking him to call, email, get in contact with me or his brother and nothing. I know he had access to email one time for sure because he emailed me once and said he had his computer hooked up, so I thought we would have regular contact but since the one email nothing to anyone. top this with my father and husband at home and its all I can do to get through the day without crying like a big baby. I try really hard to be nice and kind at work and not cry or show too much depression but I know it shows and I don't know what to do about it. I know that with my husband and my father I am even worse, because at home I am cranky most of the time, no all the time, between taking care of them and neither one of them have asked about my son, they are both very selfish people and concerned only with themselves adn their problems and they forget that I have other things on my mind and might have problems they are unaware of. I have plans next weekend to go out for a day, I am hopeful that this weekend I can go out for a least a couple of hours on my own. I feel like I really need some down time, just to let my mind go where it needs to go and think or better yet try not to think for a couple of hours just rest - sleep would be nice. At night I have been sleeping about 2 hours waking up for an hour or so and then going back to sleep for a couple of hours and then getting up. Thank you for your kind thoughts they are appreciated.