Update to my post of 4 hours ago: no, I am not feeling normal for the third day in a row. Right now I'm angry for no real reason, so back to ultra rapid cycling. Angry, frustrated, bored.

Tomorrow night I go up to 50 mg lamictal. Please making a lasting change, lamictal! I am so tired of not feeling like, and being, "normal."

I need to keep things in perspective. Things are really not as bad or anger-provoking as they seem. It's just the bipolar lens.

Ugh! [huge sigh]