There is documentation that occasionally survivors did go through a grieving process because they were healing but from personal experience of my real time friends and I and the real time survivors that I have met in support and therapy groups and when I was doing my public speaking days - there was no one that grieved for healing beyond having a round (any round) of flashbacks.
we (my friends and I and those that I met in groups and going public and so on) were just so glad not to experiencing the flashbacks -
the physical pains of our bodys reacting the same way it did during the rapes including feeling ripped apart and so on.
We were so glad to not be seeing shadows of abusers before our eyes every time we went anywhere and happened to see someone who looked like our abusers or reminded our brains of the rapes,
we were glad not to be smelling the stale booze, cigarrettes, cigars and body odors that our abusers had drank and smelled like when they had abused us in the past,
We were glad not to be hearing our abusers calling us names and talking sexually to us just because someone in the back of a city bus said one word that remineded us of what had happened,
We were so glad not to be feeling our abusers hands all over us like they had done when they abused us.
We were glad not to be coming out of a flashback cut because our brains did not understand we were experiencing a past memory that was not happening at that moment of when we had to cut ourselves free from whatever was used to tie us up and so on.
me and my real time friends and real time survivors that I have met in therapy and support groups and when I went publicMiss it - no not one bit
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