I don't have any earliest memories. I have DID and what that means is that all my memories from childhood are basically stored at my unconscious (unremembered and unaware) level of thinking. Through co consciousness and integration process I have recovered a few memories but they are all abuse related. What memories that I have recovered do have some light and easy stuff mixed in there like going swimming but the memory of going swimming is part of the memory of being touched while in my bathing suit kind of thing.

Someday I hope to find that earliest memory which in the therapy world of DID is called the core memory that caused the person to first dissociate to the point where their memories started to be separated and stored at the unconscious level of thinking. once I locate that memory Im told I will have a full range of whole memories with out having to be dissociated to experience them.

But right now what I most remember of my childhood is floating in my mental safe place la la land on my musical mental clouds and sitting under my mental tree watching those musical mental clouds floating around.