I'm so sorry! I had a therapist like that my first time around. I found a new one. Perhaps you can use this to make calls for a a new therapist. Ask them about there outlook on the therapist/client relationship and look for key words about caring and being available. You deserve someone who will be there. There may be something about your therapist that makes him/her unable to be there or it just may be the training that they went through, but its nothing about you that is rejectable. You deserve compassion and care