You know it's strange, I don't even feel connected here. As a matter of fact I had the username tt4713 and requested my account to be canceled. I changed my mind, but guess it was too late. I'm back, but like I said, even here I don't feel I belong. I am at the doctors now to get a med check. I started back on Wellbutrin and buspar 6 weeks ago and I still feel like crap. I should get counseling but I don't know if I can afford it now. I've been to one before and I know what they will say, but can I really change? I'm just so tired of being how I am.