Hello everyone!

For the past 10 years or so, I’ve been developing a really bad skin picking habit. My face is the worst area, but I also do it on my legs, arms and chest. During the last couple of years I have been getting ever more determined to finally quit this habit though, because it is crushing my self-esteem, making me feel so ugly, worthless and ashamed

I have tried to follow lists of alllll possible tips and tricks that get mentioned on these boards (and on the wider web) to try and quit the picking: using gloves, covering mirrors, making pacts with other people, always covering my skin with make-up, never lighting the lights in the bathroom, stepping away from the mirror, etc. Hell, I even had a 50-cent-a-pickfree-day plan with my mum, which worked for a month (that’s the longest I’ve ever managed to quit actually).
But somehow, I never manage to make it past a couple of days, two weeks tops… and I feel awful about it.

I just went on a crazy face-picking spree tonight, and immediately afterwards I felt way worse. One look in the mirror and I just started crying because it looks so awful: the redness, the scars. I feel so embarrassed, angry at myself for doing this, depressed about how long this has been going on, and most of all I feel like a failure because no matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to get rid of this habit. I’m usually very strong willed, ambitious and determined when it comes to reaching my goals – so why not this one?
It makes me so dispirited, as if this will go on for ever.

I guess what I wanted to ask is: do any of you feel like this too?
This really sad, disappointed, angry-at-yourself, and mostly dispirited reaction?
It would be nice to know if someone actually conquered this habit and won the battle – but just knowing it’s not just me (that I’m not just lazy, or weak-willed) would help a lot

Thank you…