I am so sorry that your therapist has done this. Although I don't think it (necessarily) means that you don't matter to him, I totally understand how it feels that way. I have been through a similar thing, although in my case, the therapist actually did say that he didn't care about me ... or he certainly implied it by saying he felt very "indifferent" to me. I do know that therapists sometimes find "borderline" very hard to deal with, and they sometimes break their usual professional boundaries to try to help, because they really do care ... but then they sometimes suffer burnout and perhaps become "indifferent". I do know that there are some truly good therapists out there, although I haven't found one (I have only seen that one abusive therapist, and an incompetent counsellor) Don't give up on yourself, Mary Alice, you are worth more than that therapist, if he has truly rejected you ... but perhaps he honestly doesn't know how to help at this time, while someone else could. I have waffled too much but I will leave this here .... ((((((((((((((((((Mary Alice))))))))))))))))))