I appreciate you guys helping me with worrying about having more anxiety after my appointments.

I talked to my counselor about that this time and we spent about half the session figuring out why that is and ways that I can minimize that. And this visit was so much better! And no freaking out after.

The thing for me is over-analyzing and trying to figure everything out that comes up during sesstion.

And he said something sort of interesting to me. He said with a lot of patients, he spends time trying to get them to realize things about themselves. He said. . .I CRAVE insight. He said, when he thinks about me during the week, and says his prayers about me, he would never consider praying "Lord, please give her more insight" because I don't need it. I'm full of insight. He prays that I find peace. And that is what I need more of. He said that for me, I don't need to try really hard to look inside myself all the time because it just gets too overwhelming.

I naturally do it so for me, unlike some people, the goal is to do that a little less. Then I don't feel so freaked out and spaced out all the time because I'm all inside my head.

And we also talked about my fears of specific psychological problems that I think I have. He doesn't feel that those fears are warranted. He sees my issues as mainly anxiety issues, which of course arent' any more fun than anything else, but me trying to diagnose myself with things that I don't have doesn't do myself or anyone else any good.

So I'm having a better week now, just trying to take things as they come and not try to get over everything in a week.

I sometimes try so hard to "figure out" everything that's inside. . . every feeling, emotion, and body symptom. . . to a point that I make myself crazy.

He's trying to get me to believe that I'm really OK. . . I'm not "crazy" (whatever that means) and I'm just working through some stuff.

Thanks you guys for your support this last week.