I feel like I'm losing my grip, maybe for real this time. My whole life all I have ever remembered consistently feeling is like I'm just trying to hold on, just trying to get...where? To a safe place? To a stable place? Just riding out the storm? How many times can a person do this? How long does it go on for? How long can a person survive depression? 25+ so far...this one feels like a bad one...so exhausted, can't bring myself to do anything at all.