At the risk of being a little tmi:

Visiting boyfriend for the first time in half a year. I was naked in front of him at one point and suddenly I felt so fat! I had been doing really well about eating for a few weeks, but now all the urges to not eat and purge when i do are back full force.

That, and today I went swimming and wore my one piece because it's more modest in front of his family and it made my stomach look so big I nearly cried.

This is supposed to be my vacation but I'm having a hard time having fun because of my stupid ED.