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Originally Posted by My kids are cool
I know I keep focusing on the practical and that may not be what you are looking for. However, having been in such a similar situation, I remember how important it was that my T offered practical suggestions and help me create a plan for getting out of that situation and getting independent. I had a little bit of money saved up from babysitting and used it to make a small downpayment on a car and immediately started looking for a job. I found a job cleaning houses and actually made pretty decent money over the summers. When that place went out of business, I immediately found a job in retail. It didn't pay as well but it was enough for the apartment rent and my car payment and I got financial aid through my college and took out loans. Also, it turned out later that I qualified for public assistance.
I hope I'm not overwhelming you. I would just really like to see you create a plan. Just doing that will help you feel less helpless and trapped perhaps.
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No. I do have a plan. The problem is that it might take too long to put into action. I get VERY good money for freelancing ($125 an hour- I love being 20 and capable of doing some skilled labor) but opportunities are very infrequent. I'm a little bit too young to really get established in music, but I could win my first real full time job with a steady income when I'm 22 or 25 or 30 or I may never win one. If I don't, that's actually okay because I can still live a very successful life as a professional freelance musician, but I have no idea how long it would take me to actually be able to live off of it let alone pay off any debt. I am fortunate enough to have won enough merit based scholarship to my school that my parents can pay for the rest without me taking out any loans.
Another thing is that I've never held a "real" job and I don't believe I can. My mom always told me that I'd never be able to hold down a real job because I'm so lazy and scattered. I don't know why I still believe her. Part of me wants to just wait it out and hope that I'll be one of the lucky ones that gets employed at 22... but I know that is totally unrealistic. I wish I could believe that I'd be capable of having a job outside of music.