Hi, sorry - my post wasn't clear. When I referred to PTSD above, I was thinking that your sudden vivid recollection that you had last night concerning events of several years ago...it struck me as a PTSD symptom like a "flashback." I'm no expert in the matter, of course. You were abused in your youth and that can lead to trauma ... and one can suddenly recall repressed memories from trauma. A post-traumatic reaction, basically, recalled last night from harsh times long ago, is what occurred to me when I read your OP.

And I asked about possible intoxication during your vivid recollection last night...sometimes people experience psychosis if they are under the influence of a substance, etc. I wasn't thinking about being under the influence of anything back when you were younger and experience what you did.

I hope I don't sound too convoluted. You are a great writer, by the way! Excellent letter that you wrote concerning inadequacy of your health care treatment.

As an aside, I have a pdoc and a therapist. If I were in your shoes, proverbially speaking, and told my therapist about my recalled memories and concerns of onset of potential psychotic symptoms - my therapist would definitely want me to let my pdoc know, too. As you probably know, therapists can help "process" things but medically identifying and treating psychotic symptoms is the pdoc/psychiatrist's job. All that said, I hope your treatment team improves - you deserve more!