Does anyone else with type 2 experience this?

After being moderately depressed for a few months, I switched my meds and now I'm coming back towards a hypomanic/"stabilized" phase.

I feel like no matter what, I am either depressed or irritable. On the up side of the spectrum, I can't experience the good parts of being hypomanic. I just get a bunch of irritable-like emotions like pissy, paranoid, impatient, and genuinely female dog-like. I feel hyper for short spans of time but its never in a good way. There's always one of the negative feelings mixed in. Rarely can I truly enjoy being happy for more than a few seconds at a time.

I plan on discussing this with both my psychiatrist and therapist but I want to ask about peoples experiences with "mood stabilization". Is there such a thing as being truly stabilized? I have been what's called non-symptomatic but it was years ago, before I was diagnosed, not on meds, and I don't remember it. Is there any hope?

This is the 2nd time I've gone through the med cocktail fiasco and my 2nd time I've been in a sort of hypomanic state. It's sad to think that in just a little over a year I feel like I'm right back where I started. I've learned a lot during that time but it's still frustrating to still not understand it.