I know being naked in front of my husband of almost twenty years bothers me. I try to have a towel around me when coming out of the bathroom. I imagine him being repulsed. I don't know why.

I'm too big now, although he doesn't seem aware of it. I try to make sure I have on a big t shirt or something at least in bed.

If this is tmi delete it, but I always make sure the lights are dim if we are making love, and I don't like to be "on top", because I figure he can see my fat stomach and butt and boobs and be grossed out. Fortunately,it doesn't seem to repulse him, maybe because he is not thin. But I HATE to do like that ans have him running his hands all over my fat stomach and back. I'm embarrassed. And this is my husband of twenty years.....he loves me.

Because he has seen me at fat, thin, and normal, it's not nearly as anxiety inducing as a new relationship. So I feel you pain. (((((((((Hugs))))))))

When I had lost weight a few years ago, by strict starvation and super exercise, I was thin enough that if I laid down flat on my back, my hip bones jutted out sharply enough that my swimsuit or whatever it was.....the bottoms wouldn't lay flat....because my stomach was so sunk in. I actually LIKED it for some reason, although it's not a look I like in others. So, I was laying in bed, looking across in the mirror, admiring my skinniness, and I could tell my husband wasn't impressed by his expression. He tends to keep track of when I ate last ugh.