Time is not on my side right now. I'm headed overseas for a year in January. I've been in therapy for a while now and I just don't want this on my mind when I'm deployed. I don't have a whole lot of faith that it will ever be out of my mind but I would just like to get to a place where it doesn't hurt so much to remember.

Thank you for all of your replies. It really helps to know you aren't so alone.