Thank you for the warm welcome. I do have access my therapist and an appointment tomorrow. But I feel completely turned around! I went from feeling almost healed to not knowing anything about this piece of me! I went to sleep because I was feeling so stressed and when I woke up, I was wearing different clothing and I was receiving calls from people very upset with "Catherine" for "speeking to them in such a manner" and yet I hadn't left the house or made any calls. I had slept for 5 hours or so I thought. I was wearing different clothing and the car was in a different local and the house was in a shambles.. but I am sure I was sleeping. Why wouldn't I have seen sighs of her before. In 12 years of therapy where was she. Oh and by the way one of the people who she had pissed off was my therapists assistant (a very sweet person who I get along very well with). "Catherine" told Cindy that she could cancel my appointment for tomorrow since he (the therapist )was ovbiously not aware at what was going on - after all those years she (I) had worked with him if he (the therepist) did not see how shacky she (I) was well then he (the therapist) just wasn't doing his job and she (I) didn't need his help. Cindy didn't recognize "Catherine's" voice and didn't know if I had a sister or a close friend so she did not cancel the appointment and called me back. I assurred her I would be at tomorrow's appointment but I was in shock at how brash this "Catherine" was in her defense of me. Catherine was my grandmother's name but she was really a sweet mostly kind person.. I really don't know this Catherine person.... this is really upsetting....