You would think I would look forward to the weekends. I am basically alone all week.

My Hubby, my soulmate is home for 2 days.

I don't know what is up with him, is he trying to make me want to commit suicide ?

Today was my first weigh in on my Chris Powell body challenge.
I'm down 3pds and 3 inches in 6 days.I am way down on my seroquel. I have some energy. I cleaned yesterday. I exercised twice as much as I was supposed too.

All he has to say is it is not enough, basically so what ? He keeps making very crude sexual type comments to me.

I told him today if he doesn't have supportive or nice things to say to me then don't say anything. He started yelling, swearing and threatening me.

Just being around him is dragging me down. I am trying so hard.
Why is he doing this to me ?

Now that Jason is gone it is just the 2 of us. It seems I build myself up then he has to push me down.

I can't take it I really can't. I can't stop crying now and wondering is any of this worth it. Where do I go now ? I am walking on a very narrow cliff.