I have read the symptoms of BPD and got chills...this could be me.

I have been to five different pdocs in the last two months, and they are all over the place with my diagnosis... just look in my signature I quit my meds and blow them off within 2 weeks, maybe three.

The last one I went to see last week did not tell me what her diagnosis is, and just gave me meds and instructions on titrating up with a call to her first. So far so good...but now I wonder about the diagnosis she has.

From eighteen up to twenty-nine I had close to 80 different sex partners. I have been fired from every job because I got sick of my coworkers rather quickly... and the customers... and the job.

I self-medicated with pot, pills, and alcohol for over 20 years. Oh the havoc I have caused!

I join groups when elated, cut them off when I am down. UP and down, UP and down goes my life. And if I cannot get out for whatever reasons, I freak out. And then regret getting out a little while later.

I think I will ask my pdoc at my next appointment... she is a psych nurse, too, with over 30 years experience and the best I have been to so far.

Wow, what a ride