Well, I just started this therapy with my new life, new friends (old but new as in no one knew about my past before college life), new job, etc.

I self harmed initially in college one time, my roommate found out about it (she walked over to me and literally looked to see what I was doing). I exploded on her. She kind of seemed shocked, so I left. When I came back they were talking about suicide (3 roommates) so I just assumed she was talking about me (which it turns out she wasn't) and I told her some very nasty things...she said she had thought about it and would tell the dorm mother about it, so I just was like whatever. Do you. As we do now, we later talked about it, she explained she was just bluffing because she was frightened I had exploded on her and had never planned to tell, and I apologized for the misunderstanding. We never brought it up again.

I told my best friend about it (shes still my best friend to this day) that initial time, she was there once when I tried NOT to commit suicide (was drunk), and she knows i'm in therapy now. She's very supporting about me doing whats best for me, but we never really talk about those things anymore.

Other bestie does not know about the self harm incident but he knows about my past suicide attempts and I have to say he is THE MOST supportive person EVER. Too bad i can't love him like that because he would be the perfect companion.

My other friends know that I have "moods" and they've learned when to give me space, a listening ear, or a hard cold truth. Only one of them knows that I've started therapy, and she admitted to having seen one a few times at her school.

I told my dad about starting therapy (and how I wanted him to stay out of it - he volunteered to talk to the therapist about my past), he admitted to seeing one for a short time on his own in college as well.

None of my friends/family know the extent of whats been going on with me lately, only the two besties, 2 of my friends and my dad know about therapy and no one knows that I have started self harming (again), but mainly because its personal and I don't want them to worry about me.

So all in all, i've had a pretty good response, but I will say that I am VERY selective of who I let in or call friend and those relationships have taken at the LEAST 5 years to develop. But in that time, I've truly learned how awesome they are in their own ways.