He got a DUI last night. Driving some friends car who was drunker. I asked them to leave him in Juvie until court Friday. They said no. He's home now, calm regretful.. Depressed. I pretty much have him on Sui watch and have to care for him like a child sick with flu. I made it clear I was pissed off furious he made that choice. I'm grateful no one was hurt and no accident or damage. He's my baby I have to help him get better.

Was helpful re-reading my initial post and to see the extreme thinking catastrophic thinking I go to. I'm calmer now and see things differently. Everything is still majorly a f-ed up mess, but there will be help, there will be solutions. For now, I'm telling myself that. I feel like telling myself that will help me find the solutions.

Thanks guys