I'm sorry if this thread is too triggering. I was just wondering if anyone knows how a T is affected by having a client commit suicide. I've not been in a good place recently if you've seen my past posts. I'm not planning on actually killing myself, I just sometimes wonder how much longer I can do this. I just feel so empty and alone all of the time and I'm not even sure I'm worth the trouble of saving. But I have to carry on and figure out how to handle my sui thoughts because I do have friends that I care about a lot and I don't believe I have the right to put them through the pain of losing a close friend. I was just wondering if I could put my T on that list because I know a client/T relationship isn't exactly a mutual thing. She doesn't need me, but I need her and that kinda bothers me.