i understand lmo. im sry right now things are alittle outa place.
i dont know whats control over me. i really dont. i cry telling myself to stop. i just cant. its amazing. ive read the bible for hours. cried. and still felt that i couldn't stop. if God cant save me i dont know how to stop it. i dont know why i do it. i thought it was to exscape but now i just like it, its both. i have no idea what im doing. but its like i have no control. ask me if i want alchohol and ill do it. ask em if i wanna do crack and ill do it. ill do it all. except for needles. mushrooms you name it. for some reason it doesn't matter. ask me to go steal something ill do it. my guy friend just told me he stole something. and somehow something came out of my mouth like...."ill go with you next time and well steal some good stuff" its like i have no control. ill do anything