So...I know i've been posting a lot of threads, I guess its nice having someone to express to who understand, but *shrug* thinking its about time to step away from thread posting for a while - don't want to get on anyones nerves.

ANYWAY, so tonight I cut myself. And i wasn't sad. In fact the only emotions I've felt today were hapiness, peace and a little anger/irritability. Relatively good day. But I cut anyways.

At first, I just wanted to bleed. I like to watch myself bleed. I'm not a "deep" cutter or suicidal, I just cut. And usually I have a reason (emotions), but nope not this time. So I did, I watched myself bleed and I realized how good I felt physically (like when you have those first 2-3 shots of vodka/gin).

Anyone else ever done this?