I'm gonna say the same thing I said in the daily check in
Today was just a bad day, it started out good, I went to personal training, I did great aside from the fact that I almost fainted. Then later in the day my aunt and uncle came over with their new 6 week old baby. I made her smile, held her, calmed her down when she was crying, and I was happy, aside from when my great grandma said 'in about 5 years you'll get married and have one of your own.' It took everything I had to not burst into tears right then and there. Because, 1: my soulmate, the only man I've ever loved and wanted, dosent wanna give me children, and 2: we have been broken up for 3 months now and as much as I know he loves me and everyone tells me he's just being stupid and he'll come back soon, I'm shell of what I used to be when I was happy with him, Im not who he fell in love with, I'm depressed, I can't eat without throwing up after, I have to gather up all that I have left of my willpower just to get up in the morning. I know that one day he'll ask me were his cheery and bright Sonya went, all I can say is, 'you put the final nail in her coffin.'

And to add to that, I've been sobbing uncontrollably for an hr now and I just feel like I want to fall off the face of the earth, too bad it's not flat.