Im not sure how visual you are. I use visuals to depict emotions when using words would be too complicated. Life is like a frisbee. You are young and inexperienced and situations might overwhelm you so that your life is like the way a frisbee flies when a young child first throws it. It flips and flops and lands a few feet away upside down and not making much distance. The little child picks up his frisbee again again and makes a little improvement with each toss. After awhile he's got it flying a further distance, but, hasnt learned everything he needs to know and when he throws the frisbee, its upside down. Emotions for the depressed can be like that upside down frisbee, wobbling in the air, landing short of the goal, and where it should be happy more than sad, its sad and the world is upside down. Keep trying, in time, those feelings are inverting so that the frisbee is right side up, the flight path smoothes out, aim and distance becomes more accurate. Thats what your post made me think about, how feelings are upside down when depressed, wobbling from happy to sad and back again. If we can learn from our past we can eventually tip our emotions upside right and spend more time in joy than sadness, as its meant to be.